Post by whitewolf on Mar 25, 2006 21:39:22 GMT -5
The year was 1982 and you probably are thinking that meth wasn't around then.... WRONG !!! I had just gotten back from a South American country in which I did somethings I was truly ashamed of.... Too the point I had nightmares of what had happened.... The nightmares were so bad that I did not want to sleep......
I told a so-called friend of mine about it and he said " I have just the thing for you"..... He told me to sit back and relax and he would take care of me..... He began to fix a needle with a cloudy mixture up, he tied some stretchy rubber material around my arm and told me to relax..... He injected this mixture into my vein and as he released the rubber tie, I felt this warm feeling moving through my system, until I felt an explosion in the back of my head at the base of my neck..... The explosion and rush I started feeling was not to be believed and can not be explained, but it was the best feeling I had ever felt in my life including being better than sex..... I was then on an 18 hour rush..... I asked him what he did and he said that he injected me with crystal meth.... I was like WOW this is great how do I get more..... He told me that he had some sources in the outlaw biker gangs that made the stuff and we could get plenty.......
Well for the next 2 years I went staying up 10-19 days straight at a time up to the point were I was injecting up to an 8 ball a day when it was available..... My night mares were gone but so is most of my memory of those 2 years..... I was getting paranoid of cops, thought that everybody was looking at me so I put up cardboard on my windows so people could not look in on me... That did not quench my paranoid fears so I went out and got black spray paint and spray painted my windows black...... I continued this behavior until one day I walked past the bathroom in my underwear and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.... I thought someone had broke in because I did not recognize myself...... After some serious soul searching I quit that very day throwing the rest of my meth into the toilet and flushing it......
I have been clear of meth since 1984, but it is a demon that I still fight daily, I don't remember much of what happen between 1982 & 1984, but the things I do remember I know that I was in places that I could have been killed for things I did and was doing, only that God had other plans for me (and thats another story) is the reason I am here tonight writing this.......
If your on meth call or get help imediately...... You have to make the choice to fight this demon..... Your very life depends on it......
White Wolf
Cleveland, Georgia
I told a so-called friend of mine about it and he said " I have just the thing for you"..... He told me to sit back and relax and he would take care of me..... He began to fix a needle with a cloudy mixture up, he tied some stretchy rubber material around my arm and told me to relax..... He injected this mixture into my vein and as he released the rubber tie, I felt this warm feeling moving through my system, until I felt an explosion in the back of my head at the base of my neck..... The explosion and rush I started feeling was not to be believed and can not be explained, but it was the best feeling I had ever felt in my life including being better than sex..... I was then on an 18 hour rush..... I asked him what he did and he said that he injected me with crystal meth.... I was like WOW this is great how do I get more..... He told me that he had some sources in the outlaw biker gangs that made the stuff and we could get plenty.......
Well for the next 2 years I went staying up 10-19 days straight at a time up to the point were I was injecting up to an 8 ball a day when it was available..... My night mares were gone but so is most of my memory of those 2 years..... I was getting paranoid of cops, thought that everybody was looking at me so I put up cardboard on my windows so people could not look in on me... That did not quench my paranoid fears so I went out and got black spray paint and spray painted my windows black...... I continued this behavior until one day I walked past the bathroom in my underwear and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.... I thought someone had broke in because I did not recognize myself...... After some serious soul searching I quit that very day throwing the rest of my meth into the toilet and flushing it......
I have been clear of meth since 1984, but it is a demon that I still fight daily, I don't remember much of what happen between 1982 & 1984, but the things I do remember I know that I was in places that I could have been killed for things I did and was doing, only that God had other plans for me (and thats another story) is the reason I am here tonight writing this.......
If your on meth call or get help imediately...... You have to make the choice to fight this demon..... Your very life depends on it......
White Wolf
Cleveland, Georgia