Post by Teresa on Feb 3, 2006 19:52:40 GMT -5
I did it,…you can too!
Please allow me to share a very short introduction. My name is Teresa, I'm 34 years old, have lived in North Georgia all of my life. I'm a recovering meth addict and I have been clean for almost 4 years. I have no criminal record, and at the time I first started meth, I was a Girl Scout Cookie Mom, a Homemaker and worked part-time in computers.
In the beginning doing crystal-meth was fun, so I did it all the time. I was over weight and I was losing the lbs fast! I was looking so good. But before too long I needed it to feel “normal” and needed it to function in my everyday life.
My addiction led me to leave my husband and 2 daughters that at the time were 3 and 5 years of age. I have missed 12 months of their lives because of my past addiction to meth. Those bonds are being mended everyday.
I became involved with my drug dealer and moved to Miami Beach Florida to live the fun and big life. I left all my friends and family behind, I didn’t need them anymore. The drug was all I needed. My new found friend and drug dealer assured me, that in Miami, Meth flows like honey, and it’s not the crappy stuff they make here in the mountains but it’s the “pure form” called “ICE”. My family was terrified for my safety. They tried to help me, but did not know what to do, I was so far away. I never cared or thought about how my actions affected them, especially my daughters that were so young without their mother, I only cared about how I felt and getting that next smoke of Meth. I turned into a person that I never wanted to be.
Before too long I became so depressed, I didn’t want to live any longer. Most of my family had given up on me because I wouldn’t return phone calls or come visit my daughters. (I hadn’t seen them in 6 months) I lived in a Penthouse 3 blocks from the beach…and rarely ventured out, because I was so paranoid of being arrested, and I thought people were out to kill me, that it led me to stay in our penthouse for weeks at a time, becoming a hermit and never leaving. What kind of life is that?? I was suppose to be here living the ideal life in Miami Beach. Partying and having the time of my life! That’s what they promised me, but instead I’m fearing for my life everyday, I’m paranoid, I’m suicidal, and lonely and so depressed.
During my 8 month addiction I tried killing myself, and was admitted to a rehab center in Florida, as soon as I got out, I went back to using Crystal Meth (ICE) the most potent and addictive form of Meth. I didn’t go home to see my children; I went back to the love of my life…Crystal Meth.
My final straw came one day after seeing something very terrible. The image will stay in my mind for the rest of my life. Let me say this. Miami is everything the movies and the news say it is. Top of the chart in Crimes and Drugs. That day, I answered a phone call from my 5 year old daughter and ex-husband. Her birthday was coming up, and I asked her what she wanted for her birthday, and she replied in tears, “I want my mommy to come home”. That did it. I didn’t hesitate, I didn’t pack anything, and I just got on a plane with my wallet and the clothes on my back and flew home to Georgia. I never looked back. I didn’t even go back to get all my belongings that I had moved there in an U-haul. I wanted as far away as possible from Crystal Meth. I admitted myself to a detox center here in North GA, and have been 100% drug free ever since. I have turned to GOD as my higher power, and give all the credit of my recovery to prayers and my faith in GOD and the friends and family that DID NOT give up on me. You know which ones you are. Thank you for loving me enough not to give up hope. Most of all I thank my Merciful God for watching over me, loving me and protecting me when I came so many times near death.
Now I want to help fight the war against Methamphetamine. Every time I see a news report or watch a show on meth, I get anger and now I want to fight back. (One of the reason's for creating the website http://www.anti-meth.org)
Today I live a happy, successful, drug-free life. My life has changed 100%. My morals, goals and outlook on life are opposite from where they were before - selfish, angry, suicidal and destructive, to now happiness, giving, helpful and positive. My dreams and goals are coming true and my anger and hopelessness has subsided. I am happily re-married to a wonderful, sweet man and have a wonderful family with my 2 daughters and 3 step-children. I am a Soccer-Mom, Home schooling Mom and work part time helping my husband in his business and designing websites. I am presently on the committee for The White County Meth Task Force (www.anti-meth.org) and plan to continue to fight this war against drugs in our community. I don't dare think of what my life would be like if I had not had the desire to live, and admitted myself to a detox center 4 years ago. I just thank God every day that I am alive and free of the demon drug METH.
I pray my testimony encourages or helps anyone that is struggling with the addiction to Methamphetamine. If I can do it…You can too!!!
LET GO….LET GOD!
Please allow me to share a very short introduction. My name is Teresa, I'm 34 years old, have lived in North Georgia all of my life. I'm a recovering meth addict and I have been clean for almost 4 years. I have no criminal record, and at the time I first started meth, I was a Girl Scout Cookie Mom, a Homemaker and worked part-time in computers.
In the beginning doing crystal-meth was fun, so I did it all the time. I was over weight and I was losing the lbs fast! I was looking so good. But before too long I needed it to feel “normal” and needed it to function in my everyday life.
My addiction led me to leave my husband and 2 daughters that at the time were 3 and 5 years of age. I have missed 12 months of their lives because of my past addiction to meth. Those bonds are being mended everyday.
I became involved with my drug dealer and moved to Miami Beach Florida to live the fun and big life. I left all my friends and family behind, I didn’t need them anymore. The drug was all I needed. My new found friend and drug dealer assured me, that in Miami, Meth flows like honey, and it’s not the crappy stuff they make here in the mountains but it’s the “pure form” called “ICE”. My family was terrified for my safety. They tried to help me, but did not know what to do, I was so far away. I never cared or thought about how my actions affected them, especially my daughters that were so young without their mother, I only cared about how I felt and getting that next smoke of Meth. I turned into a person that I never wanted to be.
Before too long I became so depressed, I didn’t want to live any longer. Most of my family had given up on me because I wouldn’t return phone calls or come visit my daughters. (I hadn’t seen them in 6 months) I lived in a Penthouse 3 blocks from the beach…and rarely ventured out, because I was so paranoid of being arrested, and I thought people were out to kill me, that it led me to stay in our penthouse for weeks at a time, becoming a hermit and never leaving. What kind of life is that?? I was suppose to be here living the ideal life in Miami Beach. Partying and having the time of my life! That’s what they promised me, but instead I’m fearing for my life everyday, I’m paranoid, I’m suicidal, and lonely and so depressed.
During my 8 month addiction I tried killing myself, and was admitted to a rehab center in Florida, as soon as I got out, I went back to using Crystal Meth (ICE) the most potent and addictive form of Meth. I didn’t go home to see my children; I went back to the love of my life…Crystal Meth.
My final straw came one day after seeing something very terrible. The image will stay in my mind for the rest of my life. Let me say this. Miami is everything the movies and the news say it is. Top of the chart in Crimes and Drugs. That day, I answered a phone call from my 5 year old daughter and ex-husband. Her birthday was coming up, and I asked her what she wanted for her birthday, and she replied in tears, “I want my mommy to come home”. That did it. I didn’t hesitate, I didn’t pack anything, and I just got on a plane with my wallet and the clothes on my back and flew home to Georgia. I never looked back. I didn’t even go back to get all my belongings that I had moved there in an U-haul. I wanted as far away as possible from Crystal Meth. I admitted myself to a detox center here in North GA, and have been 100% drug free ever since. I have turned to GOD as my higher power, and give all the credit of my recovery to prayers and my faith in GOD and the friends and family that DID NOT give up on me. You know which ones you are. Thank you for loving me enough not to give up hope. Most of all I thank my Merciful God for watching over me, loving me and protecting me when I came so many times near death.
Now I want to help fight the war against Methamphetamine. Every time I see a news report or watch a show on meth, I get anger and now I want to fight back. (One of the reason's for creating the website http://www.anti-meth.org)
Today I live a happy, successful, drug-free life. My life has changed 100%. My morals, goals and outlook on life are opposite from where they were before - selfish, angry, suicidal and destructive, to now happiness, giving, helpful and positive. My dreams and goals are coming true and my anger and hopelessness has subsided. I am happily re-married to a wonderful, sweet man and have a wonderful family with my 2 daughters and 3 step-children. I am a Soccer-Mom, Home schooling Mom and work part time helping my husband in his business and designing websites. I am presently on the committee for The White County Meth Task Force (www.anti-meth.org) and plan to continue to fight this war against drugs in our community. I don't dare think of what my life would be like if I had not had the desire to live, and admitted myself to a detox center 4 years ago. I just thank God every day that I am alive and free of the demon drug METH.
I pray my testimony encourages or helps anyone that is struggling with the addiction to Methamphetamine. If I can do it…You can too!!!
LET GO….LET GOD!